Thursday, January 5, 2012

It's About Time!

It's about time I updated this thing! :)

Life has been wonderfully full and busy - God is doing so much in my life, in my church, and in my community, so it's hard to find time to sit down and write.

In this next season I want to be more purposeful about setting time aside to get my thoughts "down on paper".

2011 was a surprising year. I thought I might have met the guy I was supposed to marry, only to find out that he didn't really know himself or what he wanted all that well. It ended in a break-up that wasn't handled in the best way, and that was super hurtful for me. Then I was dealing with the man I THOUGHT I was going to marry, for like FOUR YEARS, come back into my life for a few months. He was seeing someone else by this time, and ended up marrying her this last July. I'm thrilled for him, but it's not easy watching someone you once loved so dearly marry someone else, even if you know God has had his hand in separating the two of you and leading you down different paths than what you originally expected.

Naturally, it sounds like I have a lot of relationships with men. Not really. That's pretty much my history right there.

I'm one of those girls that always thought she would only date one guy ever. Really, it's courtship I've always believed in, but I just call it dating because it's a more common term, and not a lot of people are familiar with the idea of courtship. Essentially, though, that's been my only experience. I've never been casual when it came to getting to know someone or spending intentional time with them. I think you can know all you need to know about someone from three feet away. In addition, I think you see what they're like more in a group setting, where you can observe how they treat others, versus how they treat you during the pursuit stage (which often includes inflated promises and actions, that will probably not be their lifelong way of treating you).

2011 was also interesting because I grew into my job a whole lot more. I won't go into it here, as it is not the focus of the blog, but I really love my coworkers and my company. My job is tough and requires a lot of brain power, and these days I also travel for my job quite a bit, so there's nothing restful or relaxing about the what I do for a living. However, I have totally seen God's favor and blessing in it, and I've fallen in love with the group of people I work with, simply because Jesus loves them so entirely much.

2011 was a lot about learning old lessons again, because I didn't learn them well the first time. I'm glad that the Lord is a loving Father who disciplines those he loves. It can seem weird talking about the discipline of the Lord, but he is so gentle with it, and it is always smothered in hope and affection. We have every reason to believe that he will not ever give up on us or discontinue the work he began in us. He will be faithful to complete it. It's a promise.

2011 was a year of intense ministry. The college and career group at my church has ballooned. Our school of supernatural ministry is kickin' awesome, and getting better every week, and our youth are going deep with the Lord. I'm also on the worship team, and what God is doing in our community when it comes to arts and worship is just AMAZING. I eventually want to share more about my personal journey when it comes to music. Someday soon I shall dive into it!  :)))

2011 was a year of making incredible life-long friends. I can't even believe how blessed I am to have these kind of people in my life.  It's one of the things I'm most thankful for this year!

Anyway, I shall write more later. :)


  1. I am really encouraged by your blog... this seems silly, but I am encouraged by your singleness. I think as women we get caught up in fairy tale land and get discouraged when our love life doesn't work out the way we had hoped. I have to remind myself that I am the Bride of Christ and that's what matters. I want to get so lost in love with Him that nothing else even matters. I have a long way to go though... lol

    1. Awww Joy, so good to hear from you!!! You are SO ENCOURAGING to MMMEEEE!!! Tell me where you're at with all this love in love in Jesus stuff!!! I wanna hear!!! :))

    2. Well, to be totally honest, right now I am really working through a lot of hurt from my past and I don't know if I am even ready to think about thinking about loving anyone but Jesus!! I have to admit that things like weddings and engagements do make my heart sigh, but for the most part I am content right where I am. My most recent post talks more about where I am right now. The Lord has really recently (in the past week) begun to expose some wrong mindsets I have about relationships with men. It's been difficult, but I know it will be worth it to continue to allow Him to change my attitude towards men. I hope you get to post again soon! I look forward to hearing what's new with you! :D


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