I was reading Prophetic Evangelism by Sean Smith last night, and was hit by how Jesus and the disciples (later on in Acts) would fast...and then they would be filled with the Spirit and go out and do all sorts of crazy awesome God-stuff.
Guys. I need to fast.
I WANT to fast.
I HAVE fasted before, and it was amazing. So why don't I do it more often? Why is it always such a "special occasion" that prompts me to do it?
I'm realizing I need to make it a regular part of my lifestyle, so that I will be regularly filled with the power and love of God.
Every time I start thinking about making fasting a regular part of my life, though, I get worried....I'm so busy. I've got so much going on. I need my strength. I need to be alert. I can't just go off for a day or even a morning and just BE with God and have no food. Or can I?
And so, I'm struggle with these feelings and thoughts, and I'm praying about it. I need God's strength in order to live a radical life for Him. I can't do this without His help.
It's weird - being desperate about anything else in life is a horrible feeling, but being desperate for God - now that is the most incredible feeling in the world.